EMAIL FROM PANG

Now is 4plus, nothing much to do.. So surprise to receive Pang's email, he read my blog and gave me some encouragement words.. I agreed with him that a person changes when the surrounding changes but still dont really understand why.. Maybe my wire is slow that's why until now I still cannot understand. Below are some of the sentences and quotes that Pang wrote to me:

"Let the past be gone and over, you're still Raine, and the beautiful rainbow will be there when you've stopped crying"....

"The people who make a difference in your life aren't the ones with the most credentials, the most money, or the most awards. They're the ones who care enough to spend personal time and effort for you."

"It doesn't matter if we fall, if only we could stand up on our two feet again."

when you're happy being with someone.... that seed of love will be sowed secretly.... and before you know it, you'll start missing the person.... and by the time you know it, love has blossomed...

Take great care of yourself.... till your prince charming rides along and brings you to his castle.

Hey Pang, thanks for your encouragement..

27JUL05

I had been asking myself the same question for the past few months. What made a person change? Is there any reason behind it? Are they sure this is the kind of life they want? It breaks my heart to see the one i love had changed.. Sometimes i will tell myself not to care, not to bother but somehow i cant just ignore. Someone told me before ' We do not live two times and we must make our life full of nice feeling, happiness and loves'.. I believe everyone would like their life to be filled with happiness and loves but things are always so easy to say than to be done.. Not everybody can get what they wish for.

All of the sudden, i feel so sick of the life i'm having.. Damn sick!! I might seem to be a cheerful and talkative gal but sometimes actually deep inside my heart, i'm not happy. Sometimes I will choose to keep those troubles to myself. Just finished reading Xing Yu's blog, the world had changed.. i also dont understand why ppl cant live in peace. It may be a good thing if the world is really coming to an end. No more troubles, problems, bombing,disasters and etc..

"A sad thing about life is meeting someone who means alot to you, only to find out in the end that it was never bound to be and you just have to let go"

JB TRIP

As planned, I went JB with MY,Kelly and Pat.. Damn unlucky, jammed while we were on the way to Woodland Custom.. Jammed for 15mins then the bus driver opened the door, many ppl alighted so we followed them and walked to the custom. Gastric not feeling well since last nite so went straight for lunch after we reached City Square. Kelly treated us japanese foods **yummy** hmm.. but i still prefer sakae sushi miso soup.

After lunch, we went shopping, there were some wedding exhibition and i signed up for a makeover package cos i always wanna take a makeover album **Feeling quite excited now** Tired after walking so we went Coffee Beans, I liked their mango cheese cake cos i liked mango. We left JB bout 6pm and kanna jammed bout 1hr.. **Yawn** Feeling so sleepy now..

19JUL05

Had been raining for the past few days.. Esp this morning, raining cats and dogs.. even though I carried umbrella, I still got wet and my office was damn cold..still felt cold after wearing my cardigan.. How I wish I would kanna flu and take a good rest at home, feeling so tired recently and sick of coming to work. Why does people need to work??

After work, I went Suntec with Joan, went to play Tigam cos I still short of one figurine and my TO HEART2 would complete. Wasted $8 then i got the last piece and 3 extra figurines.. Wanna to cheat Kate to collect and sold it to her but she didnt want. **Haha** Wanna give to Brian but he didnt collect these.. Guess i got to go Yahoo Auction and sell it..

16JUL05

Actually I was planning to go JB with MY, Kelly, Michelle and Pat but last min MY and Kelly wanted to go Funan to collect something so we changed it to next sat. Since there was nothing for me to do at home so i decided to go with them. We had 'La Mian' for lunch, ordered many dishes.. **had a full lunch** On our way to Funan, i could hear sound coming from the band cos there was a NDP rehearsal at City Hall. **How i wish i can get the NDP ticket?** After going Funan, we went KTV.. Both of them loved singing too, they were my singing 'kaki' (",) MY would always delicate songs for me without me telling her what songs i wanted to sing, MY knows me the best. The KTV room was damn cold and i was freezing inside the room **kaka kaka** We went home after our singing session, had a tiring day!!

JOAN B'DAY

Yesterday 14Jul05 was Joan b'day, she gave Angie,Kate,Ken,XY and Me a dinner treat at 'Rice Table' located at Suntec. As usual, Joan and I met after work and we reached there bout 6.15pm. While waiting for the rest of them, we went to the tigam fair, hoping that 'Binchotan Series 2' had launched out but who knew, the tigam fair had ended so we went to one of those shop that sold figurines. We each bought a set of figurines.. I liked the figurines that I bought cos they were all in blue **my fav colour** Joan saw another figurines that she liked so she went to tigam and sell me those that she got double **this is Joan** (",)

I was damn hungry and thought that everyone would reach on the dot but Angie and Ken were late(",) While waiting for the two of them, we took some photos inside the restaurant. Dinner was served at 8pm, the foods were quite nice esp the 'Deep Fried Fish', 'Tofu', 'Ayam Soup' **Yummy** After our dinner, we went to ZEE10 for a drink, it was a live band pub opened by Zoe Tay and we delicated a birthday song for Joan and had the cake there..
Had an enjoyable night!!

ENJOYABLE SAT

Meet Kelly, MY and Pat for lunch buffet at Coca Steamboat.. Had not seen them for almost 1mth, been missing them so much ever since I left KSBP. After lunch, we went shopping and we went to Coffee Club cos they had ordered a cheesecake for YY to celebrate her b'day but last min she couldnt make it so we got to eat the cake ourselves. The cheesecake was nice but i was too full, couldnt finish that big slice of cheesecake..

At bout 7plus, I went over to PS cos meeting Brian for movie. Didnt know what time his NDP rehearsal ended so I bought the tickets first and went to shop shop.. At bout ten, Joan came over to meet me after her dinner with Ray cos she knew that I was sitting alone outside PS waiting for Brian. **So good of Joan** Brian reached around 1040.. while waiting for the show to start, we sat outside starbuck and chit chat. During our conversation, Brian made me realize something..

6JUL05

Haiz.. Time really flies fast, tomorrow will be 6Jul05.. Exactly half a year!! Many things had happened during these 6mths.. Some of the it were things that i didnt believe.. Sometimes, I would ask myself "How could this happen to me and people around me"? But I know that this is life, full of unpredictable things.. Below is a quote which I quite like and wanna share with everyone I know..

"As Long As There Is Hope, One Shall Never Lost Faith.
However When One Has Already Give All That He Can,
It's Time to Let Nature Take Over"

TIRING SAT

Had a tiring sat.. Wake up early in the morning, went to the bank and open a monthly saving account.. had breakfast with Joan. After breakfast, we went home and get our stuff and went for swimming.. wow, i saw a handsome lifeguard at the swimming pool **hee hee** Actually i dont know how to swim so just play with the water and chit chat with Joan inside the pool.. What a pity that Xingyu went to Tioman, if not he can join us.. The last time that I went swimming was with Joan, XingYu and Jin but now.. After our swimming session, Joan went to her colleague house, as for me, i went home for a change and went to my friend house too.. Meet Joan and Ken in the night, we went to watch Initial D.. The show was nice and Jay was so cool inside the show.. Went home after the show cos everyone was tired..